“If I ascend to heaven, You are there. If I make my bed in hell, You are there.” Psalm139:8
This is the first time I am happy to say goodbye to a year. The last 12 months have been hell. Many times I’d find myself hyperventilating or screaming into a pillow from anxiety overdrive. Occasionally I resorted to self-harm: pulling my hair, hitting my head or plowing my fist through a cupboard. I’m proud to say I sought help in fighting and living with anxiety. However, help wasn’t enough. By the end of the summer marriage crumbled.
The girls and I moved out. I didn’t want to break apart our little, fresh family of four, but a change of environment was needed. Let’s review, stress, strife and separation. How about mixing in a few more challenges such as anger, addiction and deceit. On top of my marital struggles were family illnesses, death and divorce.
You see, I believe in half the concept of Ying-yang. There was light in my darkness. First, I wouldn’t have made it through without Jesus Christ. Secondly, I appreciate my close friends and family’s support. Play dates, prayer dates, texts and conversations have been a lifeline. Chasing our kids through the Dollarstore or chatting at Timmies where blips of joy for me. Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
Twenty-fifteen did carry its fond memories. Spontaneous sister tattoos, Emmalyne growing into a toddler, Makayla falling in love with dancing shoes and celebrating my 30th birthday at the zoo, to name a few.
My girlies and I are returning home for 2016. My husband and I have a lot of work to do and guaranteed this year already holds its challenges. Yet it will have its joys too. I’m counting on many more than last year.
Goodbye, good riddance, peace out 2015. I’m stepping into a new season. John 14:27
The girls and I moved out. I didn’t want to break apart our little, fresh family of four, but a change of environment was needed. Let’s review, stress, strife and separation. How about mixing in a few more challenges such as anger, addiction and deceit. On top of my marital struggles were family illnesses, death and divorce.
You see, I believe in half the concept of Ying-yang. There was light in my darkness. First, I wouldn’t have made it through without Jesus Christ. Secondly, I appreciate my close friends and family’s support. Play dates, prayer dates, texts and conversations have been a lifeline. Chasing our kids through the Dollarstore or chatting at Timmies where blips of joy for me. Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
Twenty-fifteen did carry its fond memories. Spontaneous sister tattoos, Emmalyne growing into a toddler, Makayla falling in love with dancing shoes and celebrating my 30th birthday at the zoo, to name a few.
My girlies and I are returning home for 2016. My husband and I have a lot of work to do and guaranteed this year already holds its challenges. Yet it will have its joys too. I’m counting on many more than last year.
Goodbye, good riddance, peace out 2015. I’m stepping into a new season. John 14:27